Samsara

Lately I've been thinking a lot about death. But before I get to that let me aknowledge how I haven't touched this blog in months. And it does feel good to write again.

Samsara makes a lot of sense now. That's a Buddhist name for the cycle of rebirth. We are born, we grow older, sicken, die, and start all over again. The whole point of Buddhism is to achieve a state of total mindfulness to get you ready for Liberation, through meditation. As you meditate, you think with greater clarity and may have flashbacks from a past life... Or a future life.

Enough theology class for today. The thing is they say meditation helps the mind to detach from earthly pleasures and unpleasures, such as cars and expensive lavish items, and also human pain. It may sound cruel at first, but it is better if we're really not attached to amything. Because everything eventually comes to an end. Our cars, lavish items, but also our friends and loved ones.

So yeah, they're gonna offer some free meditation clases in school next semester, which I want to sign up for. Because in my millions of lives, I've seen everything, money, material stuff, friends, loved ones, come and go as I have myself came and went countless times.

Wie geht es euch?

Hello. To my faithful 0 readers... I haven't had literally no time to write here at all since long ago, but I have many things I would like to remember. First off, I'm a Buddhist convert, or try to be. That has given me a whole new perspective about my life and question my ways.

Lately I've been noticing how repetitive and monotone my life actually is. I wake up, go downstairs and take a shower, eat breakfast, go to school, 8 hours in which I thankfully have no time to think in stuff like this, I go home, do homework, draw a bit if I can, and go to bed... With the only motivation that tomorrow will be exactly the same.

Thinking like a Buddhist, that is pretty much reincarnation here on Earth, which is an endless cycle of which you can never free yourself from unless you realize that you're in it, and decide to do something about it. Well, I've realized I'm in a painful cycle which leads to (at least for now it seems) apparently nowhere, but I don't know what the fuck to do.

I don't know Buddhist views on envy, but right now my main weakness is my lack of meaningful relationships. To me, a meaningful relationship is when you have a person to which you can tell anything to (reciprocal of course) and chit chat all day long and go places together. I have one at school and like 3-4 outside. That said, I have set my mind into talking to more people... But apparently school has traumatized me enough for me not to know how to speak with someone without bringing school up.